I hope I’m not a total bitch.
My husband commented tonight that “my whole mood changed” when Hudson got home from his Nonnie & Papa’s tonight after a two night stint.
Saturday- I was pretty much having a meltdown. I was so exhausted from chasing around the kid and putting his clothes back in his drawer for the 80th time after he throws them all over the room when I’m not looking. I was annoyed because my husband complains of never getting family time- but then Saturday morning he has a million things to do that do NOT include playing with Hudson & I. Oh, and he said that I would “feel better if I cleaned up and left our house once in a while” So, needless to say, I wasn’t in the best mood. My parents were set to pick up Hudson Sunday morning and bring him home tonight but I was literally at the end of my proverbial rope, my friends.
So, I called my step-dad. And did something I feel really bad about. I asked if my Mom & he would come get Hudson Saturday night. And they did.
But then- something changed. I didn’t have a kid to look after. I was still tired and achy and all that- but Scott & I were giggling and hanging out and pretty much having a wonderful time. There was no “CAN YOU GET IN HERE AND HELLPPPPP MEEEE?” crabbiness. It was actually kinda great. Saturday night we had dinner and sat around. Sunday, we made breakfast, went on a walk & then watched two football games even though I hate football- and it was fun and wonderful. We even decided to clean out our CLOSET at 10 PM last night and we cleaned the whole thing, organized it and laughed until 1 AM. Total teamwork.
Today, while Scott was at work I got up early. I showered at like 8:30. I ran errands. When Scott got home early we cleaned the house together. We had a fabulous day.
Then, my parents got here with my little guy- whom I missed like crazy!! I was so freaking happy to see him. But, apparently, according to my husband: I was immediately “on edge”. It made me sad to hear him say that because I didn’t feel like I act any different.
Anyways, I hope we can find a way to find the balance of having a great time together & being awesome parents. Because- well- soon there will be three and if I am really that different when my kids are around, I suppose we are ALL in trouble!
Themocracy
Oye. You know, I think it’s just one of those things when you need a break. Remember you’re preggers with TWINS, and you’re chasing an active little boy. All your life has been babies for so long, no wonder you feel on edge and overwhelmed.
Perhaps a little more time with just Scott would help (if it’s feasible, for now, before the twins come).
And I wouldn’t worry too much. Just because it happened this time, doesn’t mean it’s the way you are. Maybe you just need more help, or more you time, or more rest. Jeebus I need more rest and I’ve only got 1 in here and none on the outside.
And what do they say? Admitting it is the first step? HA. Just kidding, I’m sure you’re not a bitch. Just a tired mama
TOTALLY agree with babe chilla. it is not who you are…its just the current situation around you. and you relaxing and having a great attitude prob had a lot to do with scott helping you do things and spending some quality time with him…accomplishing different tasks that have prob been on your mind….hell i am swooning at he idea of it!
and the “can you get i here and help me” crabbiness…umm lady you have 2 bebes in your belly…and a almost 1 year old…i would damn hope your crabby! if not you would be my idol…i mean you already are…seeing as you are about to have twins and a 1 year old!
Thanks Kerri. It’s almost over! and then the fun really begins!!
I think I will do much better once I am healed from surgery and all three are here. Pregnancy & I just do not get along at all.