So, today is probably the last blog I’ll have a chance to write before the big day. I’ll cross my fingers that I will get in one more- but just in case:

Yesterday I had my pre-op where we discussed what would happen during Wednesday’s surgery. I’ve done this before, but I think my previous ignorance was bliss. I was able to “pretend it wasn’t happening” but now, this time- I will be able to see subtle differences which will have my mind racing with “what ifs” and “why are they doing thats”.

I am gonna go under the knife yet again. And guys? I’m pretty scared.

I don’t see c-sections as something to vilify & I definitely don’t think that people should ever EVER pass judgment on others and the way they bring their children into this world. While this isn’t ideal for me, I literally cringe when I read things about women like me being misinformed or uneducated or stupid to allow the doctors to FORCE me into surgery instead of labor.

Hudson was transverse & now so are BOTH the twins. On my ultrasound Monday they were literally swimming in the Pisces formation (which was sweet seeing as they will be my little Pisces babies). Tell me how exactly I am to have a normal birth with kids who are in my ute like this:

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They clearly do NOT line up with that little zero shaped hole. I think the reason women used to DIE in childbirth may have something to do with people like me. There is no way two babies laying on their sides are going to proceed down the way they are supposed to. 100 years ago- I wouldn’t survive. I don’t care what argument you have to the contrary. I think it’s true.

So, I am HAPPY that I receive medical care from great doctors and nurses who have been nothing but amazing to me through my two pregnancies.

I am confident that my doctor, who is also a mother, will do her absolute best to ensure both the health of my two children & me.

That all said: I am also SUPER EXCITED.

It was only about 13 months ago that I was preparing for Hudson’s arrival- and here I am again. Tomorrow morning, I will call labor & delivery at 6 AM and they, most likely, will tell me to COMMEEEE ONNNN DOWNNNN. By noon tomorrow- I’ll have three children. THREE.

I get TWO MORE OF THESE to love to infinity.

Yes, my son IS throwing up the gang signs. He’s tough. But that is besides the point.

I’m in a total state of panic but somehow- I am also calm. I have so much to do- and no time. But, for whatever reason, I know my super human powers will kick in later today & I will get it all done.

So, in my blogging absence, please do me a huge favor & keep voting for my little blog daily, even though I cannot remind you via twitter & facebook every ten minutes. The link is right there on the right side. ——> So click that shit!

Also, I will be tweeting from the hospital because I’m addicted to the nets like that & because really, my hospital has lame cable TV. When the kids are sleeping I’ll be bored and probably get on there to update you all. If you don’t already follow me- you can also add me by clicking the button in the right side bar over here ——->

Lastly: OMG! BIG NEWS. Without giving away too much info- I have been asked to do my VERY FIRST GUEST BLOG! It will be published Friday, so look out for that. I’ll sure I’ll be able to jump on here to put the link up when it’s time.