I think as long as you don’t let yourself get blue, and you recognize that wanting this alone time is ok, as long as it doesn’t become something more. Don’t be afraid to ask people for help though (this is the pot calling the kettle black by the way .

PS – they are SOOOOOOOOOOOO cute!

I couldn’t imagine bringing twins home to a home w/ my son. My daughter was hard enough. Totally understand how you feel about looking at Hudson like a kid, and not so much a baby anymore.

Hopefully, once you get a more solid routine that includes more sleep, you will bounce right out of the feelings you are having.

I applaud you!

*hugs*

Hang in there!

It’s tough, I know. And really I don’t know, because I only had to deal with the two itty bitties, I didn’t have a “big kid” on my hands at the same time! If you need any ideas or have questions, please ask, I am happy to share how I survived “the early days” as I now fondly refer to them. We had a pretty hardcore routine going with M&L that helped us stay somewhat sane.

I get how you feel postpartum though…I too felt strange. Not what I would call PPD, but not feeling like socializing with visitors or helpers. I think it’s because with two babies, your mind is always split-focused, it’s not like with one baby where you can hold them in your arms, and know that they are safe and sound, and you can focus only on THEM. So adding other grown-ups to the mix, even friends, splits your focus even more and you just can’t (or at least I just can’t!) do that many things at once.

As far as breast feeding goes, props to you! I pumped and bottle fed, which in itself was hard but I think not as hard as actual BFing because like you said, they are ssssllllooooowwww eaters! I get the guilt thing…in a different way, I guess, because I imagine that if I had only one baby my first time around, I would have breastfed (or at least tried…I really didn’t make a huge effort to try with M&L and I feel super guilty about that). And I think that in the future when we have #3, I will try. I just decided that with Mary and Lila, I had to make a choice about how I would spend my time and split it between them, and because Lila couldn’t breastfeed (reflux and a gavage tube) I sort of made that same choice for Mary to “keep it even.”

I’m glad your mom is there to help until Monday. I hope you’re finding some time to get rest and heal from your c-section, that’s a pretty major surgery!

Truman and Sawyer are gorgeous and they look so sweet and peaceful in the picture. There’s just something so special about twins snuggling up in a crib, especially when you consider that they’ve been snuggling up together inside your belly up until just 7 days ago!

that sounds way stressful. i’m sure you’re doing as best you can, and that’s what’s important. your babies obviously love you, and they’re so lucky to have you!

xo