Thanks to Andrea for getting this song stuck in my head first thing this morning when I woke up to find January 1, 2011 to be too much like December 31, 2010.

The other day I watched a movie. A super cheesy Zac Efron movie called 17 Again. And I kinda loved it. Those kind of plots make me smile & this one especially made me so grateful for who I have to share my life with. If I did it all over again- I’d hope for the same outcome. Even if that means arriving at 2011 just as we are. Lost & scared but together & happy.

I have been so hopeful that 2011 would bring me changes I have been longing for. And really, today is just another day. Some days will be awesome. Some will be epically hard. We will have to make decisions & face facts & be real & love fiercely & let our minds wander to where we want to be by the end of this new year.

2010 was an amazing year. It was so hard on us in mostly every way possible, but we are still standing here. Battered and bruised. But HAPPY. Grateful.

Hudson made it through his 1st year. Not that there were any doubts. But seeing this kids you literally CREATED & knowing you’ve done your best in your first year of parenting- it’s a surreal feeling. Happy. Proud. Sad.

And in March we welcomed Tru & Sawyer. Our surprises in every way. (I’m pregnant!? There’s TWO!!!!?!) It is hard to imagine that we were a family of 3 just one year ago today.

Those were the highlights- but there were lowlights too. Some are sad & depressing & unresolved even as we tumble into 2011. But like every year before this, we will keep on trucking. Keep on Keeping on. You know- all those weird sayings.

We will DO IT. We will take who we have & hold them close. We will take what we have & make the very best of it. We will watch Hudson turn 2 in just 19 days. We (Ok, maybe I) will cry like a baby realizing his childhood is just slipping through my hands. We will celebrate Tru & Soy’s 1st birthday with all our family & friends.

I am still keeping my fingers crossed that 2011 will be amazing. That we will feel ease in our lives. That money won’t be such a strain. That my children, family & friends will be happy and healthy. That my friendships will remain airtight & that I make new and lasting friendships. That at midnight on December 31, 2011, I will be content with cuddling up on the couch with my husband- more in love than I was the year before.

And really, minus money- that’s all within my control.