I hate you.
I wish I could be one of those women who LOVES being pregnant, and maybe, around 30 weeks I will get to enjoy myself. But, right now- we are NOT FRIENDS. I want to curl up and die. You have defeated me. I have not kept anything down-water included- for over 24 hours now and it’s just really really not fair.
So, in summation, I hate you with every inch of my soul, pregnancy.
But, if we are real here, I am in love with the outcome. I cannot wait to meet my new little one. I just wish I had used a surrogate!!!
Love, Emily
So, I’ve basically been losing it for a few days now. My brain is not working to my advantage. Last night, we went over to my Dad’s to hang out for a bit and then my parents watched Hudson while Scott and I went to Benihana with some friends for Scott G’s 35th!!! Birthday. That’s all well and good- but as we were leaving my parent’s house I asked Scott if he could please change the baby’s diaper before we went. It’s at that point we realized we have totally forgotten the diaper bag at home. No diapers, no toys, no change of clothes, no blankets. Nothing. We had to run over to CVS and get everything since we didn’t have time to go home and still make dinner on time. It ended up being a $40.00 mistake, which was lame.
Dinner was super good- but at 1135 the next day I am still pretty sure it could end badly. What the hell? I should probably just never eat again.Although, Rocky’s choice with the filet upgrade may be the best dinner EVER! I wish I could have enjoyed it more, though. For how expensive it is- it’s no fun paying that much for a dinner you cannot fully enjoy.
This morning Fed-Ex delivered Hudson’s playpen. I was stoked and decided to set it up- but apparently being 2 feet away while he laid on the bed was a bed idea. He decided to flip off the bed and land on his head. I almost had a heart attack. He was kind of shaken up for a second- thank god it took less than a minute to cheer him up. I think he was just surprised at the fall, since he definitely wasn’t hurt.
He’s still having some seriously sad baby pooping issues and this afternoon I am taking him to the Doctor. I think I’ll let them handle it. I’m too freaked out about his poor little butt!! uckily, Scott is only working a half day today so we get to go as a family. I’m stoked.
This weekend should be really fun too, if I can get my life together and NOT PUKE!!! lol. I’m hoping for the best. I’m also hoping my darling child will feel better soon. It’s so sad to see him upset.
OHHHH!! And MONDAY is my doctor appointment- FINALLY! So, I should have news on Monday regarding BB Brandt #2!!!
Hope everyone enjoys their weekends.
Here’s the deal. There will be a lot of misery and complaining on this blog for the next few months. It’s a fact. So get ready.
My hyperemesis is back with a VENGEANCE. I had, luckily, forgotten about what a miserable first 5 months I had with Hudson and how debilitating and depressing it is for me to be pregnant. Hudson was obviously worth every second and I would suffer every day of my entire life to make him happy and healthy. I know this is the trade off with the new little one. Right now though? I just want to die. And for anyone who hasn’t been through this (hyperemesis) they have no idea. This isn’t morning sickness. It’s not even BAD morning sickness. It is that all I’ve eaten in the last few days is a few pieces of toast (bad idea) a couple baby carrots and about 5 bites of soup. Collectively in the last week I’ve had maybe the equivalent of 2 bottles of water. I’m losing weight at a rate I could only dream of before this. Up to 2 pounds A DAY. I am dehydrated, tired, sick. You know that feeling when you about to puke? Your heart beats faster and you get kinda clamy? Yeah. That’s how I feel ALLLLLL DAYYYY LONGGGG and last time it last MONTHS. It is so depressing to feel this way and it’s hard not having anyone who has had this pregnancy complication. There is NO relief. Even with medication. It’s horrible and I want to curl up and cry.
Luckily, last night was Wednesday and my Mom & Stepdad were here. Since Scott was working late, my stepdad took me over to Kaiser to fill out the pregnancy packet. It ended up being a class of sorts and most women were there with their husbands. I’m pretty sure people probably though Georgie was my husband which is kinda hilarious.
When I got home, my mom had cleaned my kitchen and folded and put away all my laundry. She is amazing. There is nothing NOTHING in the world quite like Mom. She always knows what to do to make me feel better. I can’t wait to deliver this baby so she will come stay with me for a week again! Best week of my life! I also can’t wait till one day I get to do that for my kids. I realize this is probably why Scott is really missing his mom right now. Once you have children, you realize how much your parents really love you and you start to appreciate (more than you already did) the things they do and have done for you.
We ordered Amici’s but of course: it was depressing because the smell made me sick and I couldn’t eat more than a few bites of my soup. Also, the entire night I was being haunted by the smell of peaches for some reason. Apparently Scott had a peach while I was at the Doctor, but around 8 (2hours later) I was gagging on the peach smell. Even though, my mom said she took out the trash with the pit. Crazy how good your sense of smell gets.
We watched SYTYCD and it was amazing as usual. If Evan & Melissa don’t get kicked off tonight I will die. The fact that they were paired together was great because it really showcased the fact that they are the weakest dancers on the show and probably should have left daysssss ago.
So, last night at 10 to 2 AM, Hudson woke up SCREAMINGGGG. I let him scream for a bit, because it’s so unusual that he even woke up, but he definitely didn’t stop crying. So, I thought, well- maybe he needs a bottle? Since I have read that teething babies sometimes need night feedings. I opened my eyes and it was DARK. Like PITCH BLACK. I thought about it for a second and then panicked thinking I had forgotten (AGAIN!) to pay our PG&E and this time, they actually shut me down. So, I stumbled through this fire hazard we call a room and put Hudson in our bed and Scott cuddled him while I went to make the bottle. That’s when (thank you!) I realized the entire ‘hood was out. It wasn’t just us! No street lights- nothing. Clearly why it was so dark! So, I made the kid a cold bottle by flashlight and brought it back to the bed. He drank the whole thing and demanded more. So, after 2 bottles he decided to fall asleep and I was too tired to go bring him back to his crib. When I woke up this morning I realized why 2 AM bottles are a bad idea. We were sleeping in a piss lake. Hudson’s diaper could hold no more! Usually he doesn’t need to be changed in the middle of the night, since he is changed about a half hour after his last bottle and sleeps through the night. Anyhow- So- now my room smells like piss and I have a LOT of laundry to do today.
After Scott left I turned on the TV and went back to lay down. Hudson & I fell asleep and when I woke up- the TV was off again. Strange. Then, I went to take a sip of the juice Scott left for me & it had a spider floating in it!! Talk about a BAD OMEN.
I am feeling super sick, so, I ended up having to cancel lunch with my great aunt today. I’m in no shape to eat or walk downtown. I weighed myself this morning & I am the lowest I’ve been since I’ve given birth. Still 7 pounds over my last pre-pregnancy weight, but, whatever. I have a feeling I will continue to loose for a while. Food is just sooooo unappetizing! I wish I was one of the millions of women who love pregnancy, but I am not. Pregnancy can suck it.
Other than the weird things that have gone on today, Hudson is just super duper cute. Last night, Scott & I were convinced he said MAMA, except, he was starring at the bottle. lol. I think the talking might happen before the teeth at this rate. He seems to be just bursting to talk to us. He has also started two new things, which are weird and kinda awesome. He does headstands. As in gets in a crawl position and then sticks his face into the mattress and straightens his back legs so he is fully standing with all the weight of his body on his dome. It’s really odd but totally hilarious. He also stands holding onto things- if you stand him up. He’s fully sitting now. It’s so crazy how fast all this happens!
The barfing and other good stuff has returned full force. Attractive.
It’s pretty official. I have the flu. I have been throwing up and all the other fun (but more gross) symptoms since like 11 last night.
I called the Advice Nurse at like 3AM but they are usually no help. They said I may have to go to the doctors today but we won’t know until they call me back. But in the course of a few conversations, we pretty much narrowed it down to food poisoning or the flu.
I called the girls to see if either one of them had any problems after dinner last night, but alas, they did not. And Sarah told me one of the kids I was chatting in close range with sick with the flu. So there you have it! Immune system compromised!
Luckily for us, tonight my Mom and Step-Dad and Brother are coming to our house for a low-key Christmas Eve involving movies, take out, presents and MATCHING PAJAMAS! So fun! And I get to stay in PJs all day. Which is good.
Brother is supposed to spend the night, but we will seeeee. Tomorrow we are going to make a nice breakie (if I can eat it.) and then hang out until 4 when it is time for MORE festivities at my Dad & Step-Mom’s House. YAY! That will be fun because all the Brandts are coming along as well. I like that the families can get along so well. It makes it much easier on Scott and I. (Sorry, thats selfish, but it’s hard to make 800 stops on the Holidays, so combining a few is awesome.)
I’m kinda sad that I had to flake on Julia this morning. Our tradition of going to Liguiria Bakery got all messed up because I was projectile vomiting while trying to get ready at 430 this morning! She had to go without me to San Francisco, but was nice enough to come deliver some focaccia to us after.
Can’t wait for the next few days either. It looks like the holidays will continue at least until Saturday night. It’s kinda Hanukkah like. Gifts start today and keep coming until Saturday! I know that sounds really bad. But whatever. I’m 6 years old at heart and broke…so new stuff sounds AMAZING!
♥
So, tonight Scott & I, his father and the girls went to Roger’s brother’s house for dinner. Now, going to your husband’s uncle’s house may seem quite normal to most… but in the eleven years I have been with Scott we have never seen the uncle or any of that side of the family. In fact, Scott says he is pretty sure he was like 2 or 3 the last time he personally saw any of his cousins or his uncle or aunt.
Well, tonight that changed! We went to his Uncle Jim and Aunt Linda’s house and met all his cousins and their husbands and wives, children etc. I was really overwhelming for both Scott and I that there is a whole world of Brandt we didn’t even know before tonight!
It was an all around good time. I’m happy we got to do this.
Now, I am off to bed, since Julia will be here before 5 AM for our focaccia run to North Beach. It’s our tradition, but I am so afraid of waking up that early!
That, and the fact that I now overwhelmingly need to throw up. So, I suppose I’m going now. :/
Night Night All.
Today was kinda crappy.
I woke up and ate cereal. Like with milk. Milk hasn’t been agreeing with me since I have be all Preganese n’ shit. So today I barfed for the first time in literally weeks. It sucked. It’s funny how even after being USED to barfing…you never really are. I got a few weeks off and it was a completely foreign concept again. I fought it for several hours…but the kid won. What kid doesn’t like Froot Loops?!
Ever since the whole yakking episode I haven’t felt very good. Boo.
So, I have to skip my yoga class tonight. Odd positions probably won’t help the barfy feeling. I am, however gonna hit up the IMMI softball game in a couple hours. If anyone needs a ride I will be mobbin’ the Jetta… let me know! (A Mili will be blasting!)
Then tonight, after we get back it’s GG timeeeee! HELLLLLL YEAHHHHHHHHH!
BTW: Blue says “Hi!” he has been sitting staring at the screen this whole time like he’s really into blogging.
<3
Hope everyone has a wonderful nighttttttttt! I know husband & I will!
Oh, and BTW we went to the IMMI softball game tonight and it was super fun. They won…which is awesome. It was also awesome because as usual Krust has the largest entourage…and thanks to me we usually have the filthiest food too! (Although, Carolynn and her sis definitely helped with their Panda Express!)
Here is the team in all their glory, although this pic was from a previous game…
During the game I ate a deli sando, some chips and a rice krispy treat. Afterwards…. I got super sick for the first time in like over a week. BOOOOOO!!!! I guess no on the deli sandos? It was almost shocking since baby has been a hungry hungry hippo this last week. I was like “uhhhhh, I thought we were past this, baby!” but NO! It still hates me! At least I’m not packing on the weight. I’m definitely thankful to still be almost 10 pounds lighter than when I found out I was pregnant!
Here is Scott & I on our way to the game:
I’m totally “frog facin’” it up! hahaha. I made the pic look old because just this second I realized photobucket.com could do that. I’m kinda stoked. I’m sure I’m the last person to realize that…but whatevs.
Just thought I’d throw that one in because well, this is my blog and I do what I want!
ANd now, at 8:47!!! I am headed to bed. It’s tiring being a sacred vessel, let me tell ya!
Sweet Dreams, all. <3
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