Hudson is at Nonnie & Papa’s house again. He left last night with them because I was having a really bad day. And no, he was not the cause. I just had a deadline for work that HAD to be met. And I had stressed myself out to my breaking point by 4PM Wednesday. Luckily, my parents got here just in time to save me from literally crawling into the corner and sobbing for a few hours.
I have been overwhelmed the last month or so. Not with the kids, but with the lack of time I am afforded to get anything else- like work or house stuff done. We’ve also been a bit slower this month at work, which is par for the August course but with three babies I feel it much more than I did in the past. I find myself questioning how I have lived my life to this point financially. All those little (and not so little) things I HAD TO HAVE 3 years ago? If I hadn’t GOTTEN THEM it would just make a huge difference now that we have 3 kids. I just feel stupid for not being responsible sooner. Luckily, our company is established. We’ve been in biz for 6 years and we aren’t going anywhere. We just have to much more careful with our money for the next few years so in the future we won’t have to worry. It’s hard to go from buying Chanel bags & sports cars to trying to stretch the groceries out just ONE MORE DAY. Some might think it’s a fall- but I’ve decided after some reflection that our goals financially are more important.
Add to that the deadline at work & I was just a mess.
I felt better after talking it over with my stepdad & my mom. They are good at helping me talk through things even if they end up being a sounding board. I am so grateful to have such wonderful people there to support me when I have a moment.
So, in order for me to get my work under control Hudson went home with Nonnie. And I missed him all day. But, by 9AM the twins were fed and sawing logs while I got to work. And I worked ALL DAY. Thanks to the twins loving to roll around on the floor and jump in the jumper and play in their play gym- and my sister-in-law Krust for coming to feed them lunch- I got a shitton done today. In fact my first break was after 8PM. I made us dinner (enchiladas!) and then after I ate I went back to work. Around 11 I WAS DONE!!!!! I got caught up on what I needed to & I am ready for tomorrow. But, since I was feeling crazy I cleaned the house (all except my bedroom!) and now I am relaxing in bed watching tv.
Today? I felt so very accomplished. But tomorrow?! I cannot WAIT to go get Hudson. I miss him. I miss him so much.
Is anyone else DYING of heat stroke!?! Today was HOT AS BALLS. Which is OK & all except it hasn’t been ‘summer’ once so far this summer. It has been downright spring-like. I think the best day we’ve had this entire year was maybe 75. It has been overcast & yucky alllll summer long.
Saturday, as my husband drove me to the Millbrae BART station it was DRIZZLING. Hello, August? Yeah- WHERE ARE YOU!?! I mean this is CA people. Granted, we are in the Bay Area not LA but seriously. SERIOUSLY. One more foggy day & I swore I was gonna lose it.
Can I tell you, though? About 10 minutes into the hot, hot heat of today- I was cursing it. I hate the effing heat. You see that? I just made a COMPLETE 180. I HATE THE HEAT! & I am now sweating in bed at 11:30 PM completely confounded by the fact that yesterday? I was BEGGING for this 100 degree day. I must have been high. Maybe just metaphorically, but High non the less. Because WHO WANTS TO HAVE A HEADACHE FROM IT BEING SO DAMN HOT?! Oh, right. Not me.
I had a crazy full weekend & I have a bunch to post- but I am tired. TIRED. And I need to try to sleep.
Updates on my busy weekend full of no sleep, first BART trips solo, Bloggy Boot Camp & Tattoos to come.
One of my very worst qualities is how lazy I am. Seriously it’s a problem. For example: I LOVE to exercise but can never seem to get off the couch. I have so much fun once I’m out there doing something. I can never just DO IT. I set a goal and then don’t attend to it until the 11th hour. Continue reading 'Sloth.'»
Confession: When I can’t get ahold of someone I love on the phone. When they travel on planes. Or by car at night. When my husband hasn’t called me 12 times and it’s like 11AM. (Yes, we talk that much.)
I panic.
Then? I write eulogies IN MY HEAD.
That’s gotta be the weirdest thing I’ve ever shared here. But, I find myself doing it ALL THE TIME.
If “insert name here” died- what would I want to say at their funeral?
I bet a therapist would have a field day with that one.
*It’s me. You know, YOU. I am writing from the future. (Insert twilight zone music here) And since I have the perspective of a few years- there are some things I’d love to share with you, my dear.* Continue reading 'Letter to Emily:'»
So, Kristi over at Life, Love, Stress & Set-Backs came up with th e fabulous idea of a twitter tattoo tour- the good- the bad-the regretful. Welcome to my corner of this fabulous blog hop!
Continue reading '#twittertattour bitchesssss.'»
Ok, good- because I totally went to Wordcamp SF today with my good buddy Mario. Continue reading 'Can I get geeky for a sec?'»
I read about this cause over at DEAR BABY, and was pleased to see an event in my hometown. I have already contacted the person in charge of the silent auction & offered a gift certificate for their auction from our company. Our family has been very lean this year- but not being able to change my child’s diaper because I couldn’t afford more? I just feel so fortunate & I would love to help others who don’t have the resources they need. I will be buying some diapers to donate & I hope you will too!
No, I don’t THINK I’ve done anything wrong- but I am for whatever reason I am feeling really guilty about A DREAM I had last night. Continue reading 'I feel the need to confess.'»
OK- I didn’t graduate from anything.
BUT-I did have a revelation. I have a website that gets pretty OK traffic. My friends & family that care to know what’s really going on know where to find this blog & they read. I have networked and met new friends through blogging. They read. If you knew my name & goggled it- you’d find my twitter pretty easily.
This led me to DELETE MY FACEBOOK TONIGHT! I feel like- I chat on twitter and blog like crazy. I also respond to every email I get. So, if you need me, you can find me! -just no longer on facebook!
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